I graduated high school at the beginning of summer with a few unfinished courses. A math course, a physics course and a spanish course. Now in order for me to get an "official grade" I need to finish at least one of these courses. The problem is I can't find the motivation to do so. The reason 'why?' is because I completely lack a direction in life. Because as I feel now I don't want to go to university and become an engineer or something like people might expect me to do. And as a matter of fact whatever I might have said some time in my life, I hate math*period* I have always been intrigued by movies, directing and acting, and so have figured; "Maybe I should do acting..?" But I've been looking at others and realize that I would, pretty much, not stand a chance, for some people work so hard and are so talented and I just don't... I guess I don't have confidence in myself to do something as big as this. I know deep down that if I just work hard enough I could probably do it, but I'm scared I will fail. At the same time I just moved home from living alone for 3 years and now have to spens my whole days with my family that is completely smothering me. I feel like I can't breathe sometimes. Like, when I lived alone I could be myself and blast whatever music I liked and dance and be as fudging gay as I wanted to (even if I'm not out) but as soon as I moved home I had to go into this "role". Pretending to be someone I'm not... Point is I don't know where to go in life or how to get there and It's scary because I'm slipping into old habits and becoming a version of myself that I don't like. Someone save me!:icon_sad:
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