Whenever I picture myself being seduced to I get uncomfortable because I feel like I'm playing a role, I feel like I'm too ugly to be making sexual faces and sounds. I shouldn't be enjoying anything or that someone shouldn't be taking control because I'm not "feminine enough". That makes me feel even more depressed, why do I think like this? I don't know where I learned such thoughts but I want it to stop--i want to be normal. I could use some help or insight on this dilemma please.
