I don't know how to be happy with things anymore. I try to be myself in real life, but I am scared of facing rejection from my friends as I have been lately. I tried making friends with someone again, and they gave me the wrong number to text them at. I have been teased about being kind of open about my gender by someone who found out in a way I didn't want him to. I'm not even sure of my own gender yet and I am being teased about it. He decides to just fucking call me my chosen name (Alex) in front of people I am not out to about my gender. Now of course, not that I don't like being called hat, but he said it in such a teasing way, if you understand what I'm saying. It was in such a disrespectful and almost degrading tone. That really just got me even more depressed. Ugh. I need help.
