..... to greatwhale and CuriousLiaison. Especially that line about being who we pretend to be. I read that line last night when the power cut out and I had to go to bed. I thought about it all night and realised that I had been waiting for the right label to suddenly burst into my head after much analysing and deduction and research. Then I sort of gave up because the confusion had been doing my head in. I decided that I would just chose the "greatest fit" and stick with it to see if it feels right and to just change it if proved otherwise. Pansexual seemed best because I don't really care about people's genders. When I woke up I was "oh yeah, I decided I was pansexual last night on a fickle decision" but just rolled with it. I spent the whole day alternating between nervous and calmly happy. It feels right, though, so I'll just stay like this unless something changes my mind. But I've stopped panicking, something I had not realised I had been doing. In hindsight it seems silly but I'll just wait and see how it turns out. I wasn't sure where to put this, so feel free to move it! And my question: Could this actually work? Could it end badly?(I don't see how it could.) I really wanted to get this out. To "test run" my sexuality, if you will. So, naturally, I turned to EC. Now the hard part will be posting this.
Hi Rosalynn! Didn't see your previous thread or comments from greatwhale and CuriousLiaison, but you know, I think you have a lot of time ahead of you, as do most of us. Patience is really a virtue, in that with time and contemplation I'm sure you'll discover yourself fully and come to grips with your sexuality in such a way that you'll know, with confidence, how you feel and who you are, and it already seems like you're moving far down that road. I understand that the confusion of it all, and not knowing just how your sexuality works, can lead to a lot of anxiety and feel like the biggest thing in the world, so it is good that you've stopped panicking so much. I think most people on this site have gone through similar pain and hardship. If you are attracted to people regardless of gender, pansexual seems like a good fit. I don't understand your questions with regards to, if it could work, or if it could end badly. As I see it, living for yourself and being as honest with yourself as you can be about your sexuality is a positive thing.
