I have never felt much positive emotion before I came out. Yet it just seems to be coming out further as I progress through things. I never honestly knew I had this side to me. It's kept hidden for so long and since I've accepted I was gay and embraced it, I feel as if my emotion now is able to be released without the fear of being judged for being a bit more feminine in nature rather than being masculine. For the first time as well I got disgusted at a guy in a TV show doing something disgusting like cutting a guys head open to get to his brain. (eew) I never used to be like this and it surprises me that I have this side to me. Like the fact I can relate to people now specifically other gay guys. I find myself relating to songs that have a significant gay theme. I would honestly say that maybe it's because I have an open mind to so many things. But I also think that this is me but rather a better version of myself. What do you guys and women honestly think of my situation.
When we are deep in the closet we suppress so much emotion without even realising it. Coming out is liberating in so many ways and I'm glad to read about your experience. I know you've had a hard time with your Mum, but sometimes the gains far outweigh the losses... that's certainly been my experience from coming out and I hope you'll feel the same.