For awhile now I have been cutting to relieve pain. but recently it has been getting harder and harder to feel free again from this numbing feeling I get. I feel that if I kill myself, Ill finally be free and nobody will have to live with me again, that I won't disturb anyone or be a fuckup to my family. I don't want to die, but i do....
Please don't do that :/ You are a wonderful, unique person. If your family doesn't love you just the way you are, that's their loss. The first thing you need to do is to stop cutting. I think if you stop cutting it will improve your mental state. I'm here for you if you want to talk. Why do you feel like you are a failure to your family?
(*hug*)Don't numb yourself...its just a temporary relief to a permanent problem it may not seem it will ever get better but it will..I care about ya Twinky if you ever have the urge to cut/numb your self just call sombody or talk to me..ill listen man cause im going through somthing similar to you...just remember were all here for some damn reason...
