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Pornography Test(Trying to find a label for myself) I know I'm attracted to same sex.

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by Justinian20, Mar 2, 2015.

  1. Justinian20

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    Well, I did myself a pornography watching session and I watched all types of porn, gay porn all the way to Lesbian porn. Now I was disgusted by both straight porn and Lesbian porn most notably because of the women in the video and yet I had a reaction of immense pleasure to gay porn. I enjoyed it a lot, I even imagined I was in the porn receiving the sex. (Yet I wasn't straight up aroused by any of them, but for the more important reaction, I did enjoy it sexually).

    This basically tells me a bit about my sexuality, so is there any label or thing that means you want same sex and you have desire to have sex, but yet your body does not react to it like it would do for so many people.

    My reaction to the opposite sex does suggest I am same sex in my sexual attraction also as I do find pleasure in same sex that also suggests that. I am trying to find a label that fits me a lot. Because if I were 100% gay I would be physically aroused and get erections all the time when I look at men, but if I were Bisexual I wouldn't be disgusted by women, if I were asexual I wouldn't really want sex(which I do), pansexual (I'm attracted to physical form a lot in men, like if I look at a guy I want to hold his hands, kiss his cheek, touch his butt and do many things, those things eventually turn into anal sex, like for example(yesterday there was this hot guy sitting right next to me, now everytime I looked at him my brain and heart turned to ooze and I started to look at his hands and pretty much want to place mine into his hands. I also wanted to touch his butt as well, I wanted to also smooch all over his face.)

    So basically I'm a very confusing guy when it comes to sexual attraction, the simplest label would be gay, but I have a feeling that I am something close to being gay, as I have the romantic, physical and mental attraction, but my sexual arousal is not there. I am not gray ace either, I am probably a (some really big confusing word here meaning guy who falls behind on sexual attraction but all other forms of attraction are towards same sex).
     
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    Re: Pornography Test(Trying to find a label for myself) I know I'm attracted to same

    I have worked it all out and I had a really strange moment. Now I realized I had a lot of friends in high school and I was telling a half truth about why I was depressed. I think my depression was a depression about feeling alone without a guy to love me because ever since I was young I went with how I felt inside and that is what drove me.
     
  3. Feline

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    Re: Pornography Test(Trying to find a label for myself) I know I'm attracted to same

    I'm not a professional, but in my humble opinion: You being gay doesn't necessarily mean that you have to feel aroused by every gay porn video you watch, or by every male you consider attractive to any measure; maybe you need some other source of motivation to feel more aroused in some cases. Who knows, maybe you need to know the person better (since in most porn you only see a raw physical image), or simply to find someone who is more 'your type or guy,' your personal preference for a sexual companion (someone you find especially attractive physically, or even psychologically and spiritually, it all can be connected), or maybe even a fetish.

    In my case, I'm a lesbian but I don't feel aroused by every female having intercourse or every lesbian porn video I've ever watched. Sometimes I can get bored or disgusted, there are other factors that matter to me in order to be aroused.

    Hope this helps.