for a while I have been really good at acting straight, or what is perceived as straight where I live, but recently I've just really wanted to be myself but I can't because people will start calling me horrible gay slurs. Friday night is my parents date night and that is the best time of my life, that is the time that I can be myself and let everything that I've been holding in all week out, which is a lot of stuff.
Have you talked to your parents about this? How about a therapist, or anyone else, besides your one friend you are out to? Don't be ashamed of letting go of what you hold onto during the week, everyone needs a good hearty cry now and then. But, I would get out there, find friends who accept you, go hang out, go be your authentic self with them. That would be a start.
