Lately I feel like I'm just emotionless. And it's all thanks to those people I call my "family." As TDG sings in one of their new songs I Am Machine: "Here's to being human All the pain and suffering There's beauty in the bleeding At least you feel something I wish I knew what it was like To care enough to carry on I wish I knew what it was like To find a place where I belong, but I am machine I never sleep I keep my eyes wide open I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something I am machine I never sleep Until I fix what's broken I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something Here's to being human Taking it for granted The highs and lows of living To getting second chances I wish I knew what it was like To care about what's right or wrong I wish someone could help me find Find a place where I belong, but I am machine I never sleep I keep my eyes wide open I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something I am machine I never sleep Until I fix what's broken I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something It wasn't supposed to be this way We were meant to feel the pain I don't like what I am becoming Wish I could just feel something I am machine I never sleep I keep my eyes wide open I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something I am machine I never sleep Until I fix what's broken I am machine A part of me Wishes I could just feel something." I feel like I'm a machine. I don't even know what happiness is anymore. One of the only times I don't feel like a robot is when I'm around my boyfriend. So my big question is, how can I be happy again?
If I can do anything or if you want to talk let me know. I'm going to be a psychology major so I might could help
A question. Do you usually never let your guard down out of fear of being vulnerable? If you do, you might try letting go a bit, especially to yourself or people you trust. Maybe something like this? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8UeeIAJ0a0 If not, please describe what you're feeling, and it's easier to give you some advice. If that doesn't help yet, have a hug (*hug*) or two (*hug*) or three (*hug*). I'm here, we're here if you want to talk. (&&&) Take care of yourself! <3
I actually really love that song. And my guard is always up. It's rarely ever down, especially because of my anxiety. But that's just it. I can't let go. It feels like I always have a weight on my shoulder.
