I guess I really just need to vent some stuff, maybe get some advice To start I'm 19 years old, gay male. I'm mostly in the closet, only a few friends know that I'm gay. But even when I'm around my friends that know Im gay, I'm still not very comfortable talking about my sexuality. I feel like when I do talk about anything sexuality related, they feel akward and are unsure of what to say. I understand the feeling, because im clueless when they talk about women. Plus honeslty i feel like my sexuality is no ones buisness but my own. Thinking of my parents or brothers eventually knowing that im gay scares me. I dont know why im so scared. But on the flip side, me hiding my sexuality is enabeling me from entering a relationship with another male. I really want to find a partner to connect too, because im really sick of being alone all the time. I feel like I deserve to have someone show me effection. the biggest reason Im sick of being alone, is my so called "best friend" is a jerk. Ive always had a difficult time meeting new people, especially guys. It sucks realizing that my "best friend" isnt really my best friend. So recently ive dont hangout with anyone, i just go work everyday and come home and pretty much do nothing. I just wish i had someone to connect with and be able to enjoy myself and make memories while im young. Sorry if this doesnt really make sense. I just needed to get it off my chest
I can understand how you feel, that's for sure. If you need someone to talk to who's gone through a lot of that sorta stuff feel free to msg me k? I hope you feel better soon
Hi and welcome to EC! It must be really tough to have friends that are uncomfortable with what you are. But I do hope you find the support you seek here! I hope you frequent this site because there's much to learn, a lot of people to be friends with... And most importantly, be comfortable in expressing yourself. Please do explore the forums!
