So i used to be a huge cry baby and it would seem that somewhere in my early teens i lost the abilty to cry. With dysphoria now a thing in my life i have realised that i haven't cried in years and can only get as far as watery eyes, when i get sad enough to cause my eyes to start watering i find that i can snap put of it really easy oh and i can feel joy just fine. Does anyone know what might be going on with me i am pretty sure it isn't a tear duct problem since i haven't noticed gunk in my eye so yeah i am really confused and would appreciate the help.
Go to the eye doctor you may have a disease wear your eyes can't produce tears. You should go there and they can get you special type of eye drops.
Hasn't anyone ever "programmed" you not to cry by repeatedly telling you something like crying is bad, crying is a sign of weakness or something like that? I went through a relatively long period of time when I couldn't cry just because I believed that "men don't cry, no matter what".
I used to cry from time to time, just like any normal human being. After my partner died and I had the Niagara falls daily for a while, I turned gradually into someone who is unable to cry. I don't think I want to get back to 'normal'. I see nothing wrong with it. There is no obligation to cry, or being sad, life is too short to waste it on such useless nonsense.
There's probably nothing wrong with you, watery eyes, as far as I know, is much like crying, except there just aren't enough tears... I think you should treat the ability to snap out of it as a strength, rather than something that is psychologically wrong.