Please forgive me I didn't know where to ask this, I was thinking chit chat but I wanted more to hear others experiences so I wasn't sure. Um, if you're gay when was the first time you realized you where gay? Or at least stared suspecting you where different if you wish to use that word that is. For me it was inside the locker rooms I felt embarrassed. I would always try avoiding others but sense it was high school and the locker rooms was small i couldn't always avoid others, so I'd awkwardly stare down at my feet or look at someone's forehead to avoid my eyes wondering. I felt so wrong! :icon_redf :bang: still do! Anyways yeah...besides me when did you notice you weren't straight?
When I was 12 I started reading a lesbian topic on a forum which I found randomly and I started wondering why I felt so... 'connected' to them and then I imagined what it would be like to get married to a girl etc and realized that's obviously what I want. And then I remembered all these gay things I did as a 8 year old, like pretending my Barbie doll was my wife, telling a girl I would kiss her if I was a gay, asking a girl to play a game with me where I am a boy and she is my girlfriend, fantasizing about having sex with girls when I was like 9... etc :|So I was like, oh so I'm gay.
Well, I always had a soft spot for equality and gay rights. It was more than the average hetero-cis person. I have always been willing to fight for those things. This year, I realized I definitely wasn't straight and for a while I thought I was gay. I've finally come to the realization that I'm bi, but I have a preference toward girls at the moment. After realizing this, I thought back on a lot of things that I did when I was a kid. They were so obviously gay that I can't believe no one picked up on it. When I played with friends or cousins, I would always take the boy role and have a wife or a girlfriend or something (once I was the dog, but that's completely unrelated and I'm not sure what that could mean haha). I was the worst tomboy as a child. I went through this awful phase from when I was 9-11 where I wore my brother's old clothes, but they were from when he was like 14 and it was just bad. I had a problem with locker rooms, too. In middle school, we had to take swimming class..so we had to like be naked in the locker room. It was the most awkward thing (partially because it was middle school..) because some certain girls had no shame and walked around with zero clothes on. I always just kinda hid in the locker and averted my eyes. High school locker rooms were easier (small classes, big room). It became very obvious to me when I realized I had been crushing on a girl for two years (still going)...I thought it was just my mind playing with me, but when I fell into depression because of it, I realized it was legitimate. I'm all good now. Sorry this was long, but there you go
First "gay" thing I did, when I was three, I made all my toys, which were ALL female get married and kiss and stuff. And when I played house, I usually "married" my best friend, who was a girl. First time actually thinkin about it, was when I had a crush on my girlfriend. I hated myself for it, became depressed because she would never feel the same, and because I wasn't straight
I first began to notice around age 13 I felt *something* toward guys. Didn't fully realize/come to terms with it until 4-5 years ago.
I looked at girls when I was like 10-11 and this one girl who was probably like 14-15 had a really nice ass and I kept staring at it. And her boobs. I liked what I saw to say the least Instantly horny :lol: i'm surprised I didn't break my vagina from ages 13-15 when I was watching lesbian porn like so much it almost felt like an addiction. I couldn't get enough of it. Now I have calmed down a bit but I still watch Lesbian Porn and feel that lustfull electricity feeling go through my body I came to terms with my sexuality at around 17 years old. Being a lesbian is the best ♥
