I don't know what to feel

I just feel so lost and confused right now. It feels like my mind and soul are being pulled all over the place and I just can't seem to relax. I'm so confused about what to feel about people I see, who I'm supposed to like. Some of it is forced, like bashing my head against a wall. I'm trying to be attracted towards women but no dice. In the past it's always been men though, but now I can't stand it. Every now and then I get feelings for a guy that manage to eek out from inside me, but then quickly snuff them out. I used to believe loving a guy the same way one would a women was possible, now it just seems impossible. More like incapable really. But every now and then I get these feelings for a guy but I stuff them down without knowing it and I'm trying to force the same feelings towards women.

Now I'm at a crossroads and have no idea where to go, what to do or how to feel. It seems like I want to fall in love with a guy but at the same time it feels wrong, so supremely wrong. I find it odd since before I never felt that way.