Hi guys, So, finally he's going away, to study in Germany. We haven't spoken in months, and I was still holding on to a tiny sliver of hope that he'd come around, or just call. He's going, and with him all hope dies, I have to finally accept that this'll never happen. I woke up at 6 am tearful, and it's killing me. Maybe it's a good thing, I have to believe that at least. what now ? I want to run away too, I want to leave everything behind, I don't want to see anything that reminds me of him. I don't want to see his house, or our street, or any of his family. heartbreak is such a bitch . I hope that some day in the future I will be able to be cool about this, but right now, I just want to get sloshed. I guess I never meant as much to him, but he was everything, and it went for a long time. years of emotional investment just flushed carelessly. what a terrible loss I feel, it's like death. I have no idea what I just wrote, the screen is blurry for some reason.
Hang in there. Heartbreak is indeed a bitch, but with time all pain will fade away. I hope it will be soon that the pain stops tormenting you. May good things come to you. (*hug*)
