I need therapy. I know I do. But I'm scared to talk to anybody about anything. Even if I do seek help, I will never tell my parents about it. I need therapy but I don't have the money. I need therapy but I don't know how to go about finding it. I need therapy and I don't know how to ask for resources, I'm scared to talk to school counselors, every time I start to open up to anybody, I start to cry immediately. I am so sad constantly, I am sobbing for seemingly no reason on an almost daily basis. I keep spiraling and I don't know what to do. I am not in danger of hurting myself, I'm just depressed.
I'm being treated for depression and it actually took me a long time before i actually got therapy. I recommend that you write a letter about what you are feeling if it's really hard for you to talk about what your going through. Writing a letter about what's going on with me led to my therapy. I hope you try it out Good luck!
I agree. Writing a letter will help a lot. When I was going through a bunch of stuff all at once, I typed it all out, printed it and handed it to my psychiatrist at the time. We worked through the list point by point, and I was able to keep my composure. So writing it out might work for you too. I also get emotional whenever I need to tell my current psychiatrist about stuff that I'm experiencing, and I hate crying. I see it as a weakness. Anyway, yeah, writing might work for you too. Stay strong! (*hug*)
I second the above two posts. I find it really hard to vocally talk about a lot of things as well, so when I saw my last two (and also really first two) counsellors, I typed out the issues I wanted to talk about and what I was struggling with and gave it to them on the first session. It was a lot easier that way, and yes it was hard talking through it, but it did help me to have somewhere to sort of think outloud in a way, and have that support. Another idea is to keep a diary of sorts, write down your thoughts/struggles on a day to day basis. You can then show these to the counsellor/therapist rather than having to dig through a lot of things in your memory- if you aren't comfortable showing everything, just delete or cross out some things before you show them. I think if money is an issue and your school has a counsellor, maybe try the school counsellor first unless there's a real safety or personal reason you can't. Although I don't know how their services compare to a paid outside therapist, they can still help. Good luck and stay strong. Feel free to come back to EC to ask about anything! (*hug*)