feeling down and don't know why

so i have been feeling a little down well rely down and i don't know why i mean i have friends and stuff but no boy/girl friend and it seam impossible to get one because every one says that im ugly and other things i just want them to like me because of who i am and not me as i look i just don't know what to do so if anyone has any advice/anything that you could think that could help it would be worldly accepted, and these down feelings happen when i see a couple/or anything so yeah sorry if i wasted your time or anything but yeah

 

Yeah your right, I just sometimes I just feel alone like no one understands me and my emotional problem, it just stresses me out. (I'm
tearing up right now while writing this)

 

Yes, I have a lot of fun with my friends when I have free time and I'm all about finishing my school work (I even get upset when I don't complete it.) So I'm very focused on school, but like I said in the post above yours I just feel alone and like no one understands me or my emotional problem.

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Thank you, when ever I look at that it always cheers me up a little.

 

Its a thing that i will have forever its gonna take some explaining so you can see where do i start well i'm sure almost everyone has heard of ADHD well there a different categorys and in those categorys there are different categorys and so on i'm not sure which one i lye on but i can tell you what i and everyone around me has to deal with so sometimes when i too frustrated or other things i "break down" and start to lay my head down and silently crying if someone dosen't stop it can get bad like i can start injuring my self mostly my head because i feel like i need to "punish" my self for getting too frustrated/doing something wrong and sometimes it can get to the point of me punching people who are like touching me on the shoulder or trying to calm me down. and afterwords i look like i'm all good and fine but i'm thinking of what i have done and it gets me down sometimes to the point of another "break down". and you have might of seen in a forum post i made like a day ago that i'm a very lawful person and i don't like to make mistakes or break the rules so like if some one makes more angry or being a douchebag i usally tell them to stop if the keep on going sometimes i resort i psychical violence and start to throw one or two punches then right afterwords i feel terrible because i just broke one of the rules. its happened like two times last year at school one time the staff had to carry me out of the lunch room. so yeah sorry for the long explanation but yeah that is the full story

 

I'm feeling more and more depressed ever since I started talking about stuff like this and I don't know why maby its just because its making me think of my problems and making me more depressed I just don't know I'm not saying that you are not helpful you are its just I'm getting more depressed so I can't sleep right now. Sorry if it sounds like I'm a complaining but this is just how I feel.

 

I just feel like I'm an a annoyance to everyone because I feel like everyone has to take care of me Because of my mental condition and if I was gone they wouldn't have to deal with me its how I felt my whole life, maby that's one of the reasons I feel depressed

 

Yeah thanks it really makes feel a lot better that there is someone out there that feels similar to the way I do.

 

yeah today when I went to school there was this girl that had her eye on me I don't know but it seams likevshe has a crush on me.maby just hopefull wishing don't know

 

Yeah today I dint take my meds (abilify I think that's what it's called) and I was in much more control
with my self so I think I found the solution to that problem.
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