I slept with my best friends older brother

Call Jerry Springer up. Best of luck! (*hug*)

 

Trust your instincts. The rule of thumb for everything: If you have to ask if something's okay, it probably isn't. It's hard because you do have feelings for him. I'm not saying that you should ignore that. But you should end this relationship. I know it's fun and you like each other, but that doesn't mean it's okay. This is completely illegal. Even if you're careful, there is always a risk of it somehow getting out, even later on. It is rape and that's not okay. Even if you consent to it, even if you like it, it is illegal and this is not something to be taken lightly. This is not a game. I'm not trying to be harsh, but you need to see this is a bad idea.
Not to mention the fact that it could impact your mental health and your friendship, also very real things. You said you were uncomfortable with the fact he was older afterwards. Even if you have feelings for him, that doesn't mean you shouldn't trust your gut too.
I know this is exciting and you don't want to stop but please, you'll be doing yourself so many huge favors in the long run by stopping this. That doesn't mean you can't still be close to him and help each other since you've come out to one another, but given what's already happened, it's important to ensure you don't do anything sexual again. Please, please. This is very important and you will thank yourself later. If you get into this, even though it's fun, there are so many consequences and this stuff can wait until the situation's different.

It's certainly exciting and feels great to not only find someone else who's gay, but someone you like. That can seem like a miracle right now and it can be hard to step back and see reality. This type of a relationship isn't something you're ready for because of the age difference and because of your friends. If you feel uncomfortable now or like it can impact your mental health, you need to trust and listen to those feelings.
And again, most importantly, this is a legal issue and not just something simple like hiding something from your parents. This is a big deal. I know you think you could just be careful about it, but this happens all the time where kids try to be careful about relationships like this, but it somehow comes out in a way you don't expect. People get thrown in jail for this. Your friend's brother can be thrown in jail. Think about all the consequences of that. If you care about him, (even if he wants to continue) you will be responsible and end the sexual relationship with him. Do yourself and him a favor. Think of how his family would feel if that happened, think of your friend, think of your family. This is a big deal.
You don't want to get mixed up in this. Maybe you could even wait till you guys are both legal and that would be fine. But as it stands right now, it's a bad idea in many, many ways. If any one thing goes wrong or it affects you more, you'll regret it. Don't do that to yourself.

I know it's hard to stop a physical relationship like this, but it can be done with a little effort. Always trust your gut and remember why it's wrong and why it needs to stop. Even in the moment and you want to, remember those things or just say "You know what? Before, when I was thinking clearly, not just in the moment, I told myself this was a bad idea. I need to just trust my former self and say no to this right now and I'll thank myself later". To help with all this, you should avoid spending too much time around him, even during that trip. Stick with your friend. Stick with others. Keep yourself busy. You will thank yourself. Just because you really want to do something doesn't mean it's a good idea.

Please do the right thing for yourself, not just the thing you may want to do right now, but what you know is right in the long run. You'll save yourself from so many consequences. You can make this a positive thing too. Rushing into this is a stressful thing because of how you feel and for right now it's better if you guys build a great friendship able to confide in each other about things. But for right now, you may need some distance to get rid of the urge to do more physical things with him, build up some self restraint. I hope this helps you and please make the right decision.

 

bubble123, you really 16 year of age? wow

 

You definitely need to end this if for nothing less than legal reasons. Your friend's brother could do some serious jail time and end up on registered sex offenders list if this comes out. The age of consent in Ireland is 17.

Also, I think you are very much right to be worried about your mental development. Although 3 years age difference at later ages is not so much it is very much so for your age. Now, this does not particularly sound like very abusive but it's very difficult for you to assess it now.

If you wish to talk about this to a school psychologist or other healthcare professional, bear in mind that they may be legally obligated to break the confidentiality in your case and file a report to a social worker. So if you want to talk, do it anonymously. (Unless of course you wish to bring charges against this guy.)

 

It's probably for the better that way. I'm sorry if the relationship has hurt you in any way, but it is really good that it ended and it's probably not something you need to be worrying about right now, especially with all the consequences that could come of it. A relationship should be a positive thing that you're happy about and feels right. It'll come to you soon enough. Today just isn't the day, but there's plenty of time for that in the future
I wish you the best.