I posted a few weeks back about me struggling with my feelings towards a girl. Last Friday, we officially became together. I'm very happy and flattered whenever I'm with her. She cleared everything to me, she said no matter who I am, what I am she will always love me more than her ex-boyfriend. She always tells me how I always make her feel special. I get turned on whenever she says that she likes it when I go overly manly when I talk to her with my deep voice. She says that she can't breathe and her heart is pounding everytime I do those sweet talks to her. She makes me very happy and recently I had this drastic changes on my understanding, patience and I noticed that I have become this very calm person every since we started. I really like the fact that we're very honest with everything we feel. I really know that I love her. I don't know... I just feel guilty that I only get sexually aroused by men. I had experiences with men in the past and I already told her all about those things and she doesn't give a damn at all. What if there comes a time that she urges me to have sex with her? I'm afraid that I can't give that back to her. Fyi, I have no sexual experiences with women. Though, I often watch straight porn and I'm kinda aroused on some portions of the vid and I can cum in a few minutes when watching straight porn and the same thing as well when watching gay porn. I don't doubt my feelings for her nor her feelings for me. I just feel guilty about the fact that I have no idea at this point in time if I'm gonna be able to return the sexual urges in the near future... I know every relationship has this and it always happens. Is it really possible that I'm more attracted to men when it comes to sex and I'm more attracted to women when it comes to romantic affiliations? What does that make me then? :eusa_doh:
Yes, I believe. Simply I would be turned on with guys in 98% of the time. With girls,m 2% (probably if they were muscular or men-looking or if they just stimulate me with their hands or dildos. I like felt in love with a girl, but had no sexual attraction. I always wanted to stay with her, to give her pecks and do all the things together, like we were a couple. The fact that she had a boyfriend didn't bother me at all, which is funny, because other people would feel jealous about it. Well, I hope this doesn't make you feel uncomfortable, but she would be able to stay with you this way? If eventually you don't feel sexual attraction to her and want to have a gay experience, how would it be in her mind? In my opinion, both will need to discuss this sincerely. Hope you find the best way to solve this ^^
