(This is sort of long so i apologize.) Like it says in the title, i am really scared to go out and meet other gay people, I am 19, female, and a lesbian, I just came out of a very unhealthy and destructive relationship about two months ago, and its left a very bad after-affect on me, and i havent felt like i could trust anyone and that i didnt want to socialise with anyone after that happened. I Have been struggling with anxiety and loneliness most of my life, but feel like its gotten worse after my breakup, but i really want to go out and meet other gay people (preferably girls) but my self esteem is very bad atm, and my hope for finding friends or a relationship is low. I think that i'm an attractive enough person, i have nice physical features and am quite brainy, and i can be very kind and understanding, but i feel that people (especially other gay teenagers) do not like me, due to the fact that i'm quite different from them (a majority of them anyway) in the way that i look/dress and my manner, and i have gotten mostly bad social experiences and reactions from people. I guess i just want some advice on where to go from here, I don't have any friends to go places with (especially gay bars/events/groups) so i'm just all on my own with this, and need advice on what steps i can make, like what kind of places i could go and socialise, and strategies on how to deal with socially uncomfortable situations. I would be very appreciative of any feedback on this :icon_bigg
01. You don't need to make anyone comfortable about the way you are. YOU need to stay comfortable with yourself. You don't have to expect acceptance or friendship from the others around you. As people say, even Jesus was disliked. 02. Apps for meeting people? Gay pride events? A gay club? Try something new. Are you on college? Of course not everyone is gay, but someone will introduce you someone that is gay and then it will be a lot easier to make gay friends. It's a natural thing, I believe. Don't fear voices, eyes, conversations. Remember that you are awesome and wish to speak to people, don't fear the anxiousness.
