Hi, since i'm feeling particularly negative about life in general, lately i thought i'd talk about it to get it all out, you know. I've always been- as far as i can remember- the kind of person who sees the glass half empty. When i think about doing something (find a new job, a new activity, meet new people) i can always think about the inconvenients, the obstacles, the difficulties that will ensue. Fear of making myself ridiculous, of not knowing if i'll be able to do something, ends up keeping from life itself. I don't go out, much, i don't trying new things. I've been unemployed for more than a year and i'm scared of starting a new job because i feel like i don't know how to do anything, I have no special skills whatsoever. So because of these fears and anxiety, i stay on my own, i don't socialise much and that's probably why at almost 26 i've never been with anyone and i don't know which gender i'm attracted too. Lots of confusion and fears here, i'm feeling a little overwhelmed lately. Hope my english was understandable and thanks for reading.
It was totally understandable and damn that's deep sorry if I cant give anything else but a internet hug (*hug*)
It sounds like you have found yourself in a bit of a rut and in all honesty you're describing things that would normally point to depression. Have you ever consulted a doctor or therapist about some of the issues you mention here? It's difficult to break the pattern of negative thinking, especially when it seems so deeply ingrained into our psyche and that's why you might need some help and support - someone to talk it through with. Unfortunately, the longer you continue without help, the worse it becomes. Rather than trying to deal with all of the issues try to focus on just one thing, namely seeking help. Do you think you might be able to do that?
I've been thinking about seeing a therapist lately but i don't know if i'll be able to talk about myself, it's not something i like or i'm good at. it's part of why i like this forum so much the anonymity and the fact of writing rather than speaking. Besides i don't always feel that way, i usely occupy myself so i don't have time to think about my life. And i have to admit that i sometimes feel like i'm making this up by overthinking everything. I don't know.
I agree that you should consider seeking professional help. I feel like a hypocrite for saying that though because I have always been rather negative (and maybe mildly depressed?) yet I have done absolutely nothing about it. I know a friend who used to see a therapist on a regular basis and according to her it was not that scary. Also if you feel like you cannot trust or have no connection with a particular therapist you can always switch to a different one. I do get the shame associated with seeing a therapist/psychiatrist especially if your up-bringing is very conservative. But at the end of the day you have to weigh the cost-benefit yourself. In my opinion there is a very fine line between just being sad a lot and chronically depressed and it is always good to be aware of your mental well-being, i.e. there is no such thing as overthinking.
I wouldn't be ashamed to see a therapist but i'm not sure that i could share my feelings that easily. The thing that bothers me is that my mum would want to know why i want to see a therapist and it's not something i wish to discuss with her. I think i'm gonna give myself sometimes see if i can get myself out of that state of mind. Thanks for your replies, i really appreciate it.
