Is it weird that I kind of miss the days when I was still figuring out I was gay? I did so much research trying to figure out if I was bi or gay at the time. I knew I definetly liked guys, but I didn't know or maybe I didn't want to admit how deep my attraction was. I know this probably sounds really weird, but ever since I've been coming out to the people that I am close to, I kind of miss the newness and freshness of it all. I guess now that I know myself so well I miss not knowing things about myself. Has this ever happened to any of you?
Those beginning days were aspirational for you. Anything could happen. It was exciting. I turn 60 this month and for the most part I have traded aspirations for wisdom. But yes, I do miss those days and in some cases I wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then.
Very common, yes. Its the thrill of solving a puzzle. Then after you solve it, what do you do? Find another puzzle. Trust me, you don't know yourself entirely. Things will come up and situations will throw you off. Another puzzle will come
