I read about some bad coming out stories that involved corrective rape. I am sensitive. I am imagining myself in the shoes of the person being raped. I try to imagine scenarios where I get raped. I think about the feelings of the person and how traumatic the incident is. I also think of how it affects the partner and how they support him. I even cry when thinking of it. I just cannot remove this from my system. It has been 2 months already. Any help?
Would you describe these thoughts involuntary and compulsive in nature? Do you often have similarly pervasive unwanted thoughts on different matters as well? If so, you may have OCD of some sort which requires medication and/or therapy.
I have control. But somehow I seem to enjoy thinking about it. Or maybe my mind has made it a habit? Idk. How do I get rid of it?
You are asking very difficult questions here. If you can control it somehow then whenever this sort of thought comes to your mind, start thinking something else. I can't say why this is happening to you if you say that the thoughts are not compulsive. Do you have any other issues like this?
No. But pinching myself when such thoughts come has helped me since a last few days. But actually these thoughts are 'good' and sympathetic. So, is punishment for thinking about it the right way to deal?
Inflicting pain on yourself is never a good solution. If you are disturbed about these thoughts you should consult a psychologist.
