I go back to school tomorrow after two weeks, I'm kind of worried.

The title of this sounds like a First World problem, but hear me out. As my status says, I'm only out to a couple of my Internet friends. Most of them live 6+ hours behind me, so it's usually hard to fine a time when I'm able to talk and play games together with them, just normal friend stuff. Through these two weeks that I've been off I've been able to talk to them near enough every day. As they know I'm gay, I haven't had to hide it from them, even been able to discuss it with them. However, in real life, no one knows I am; I can't talk about it to my family or my friends at school, and it's becoming increasingly harder to just bottle it all up. Added to this, I have a crush on one of the guys in my Year who happens to be in a lot of my classes.

Luckily, I'm privileged enough to live in an accepting country. It's not like if I told my family they'd disown me, I just can't do it. I don't know what's holding me back from telling them. That being said, I'm not exactly looking to come out right now, I'm really not ready yet for whatever reason.

Have you got any kind of advice for me? What would you do in my situation?

Thank you in advance,
Shadd

 

Thanks for the advice. I survived my first week back. Please could you check my recent posts?

save me from the nothing I've become

 

Heh heh...fuck us, right? :help: