I know I'm gay. I'm not questioning it anymore, I just have been reflecting lately on if there have been any signs or indicators that I was and am gay. Here's what I thought about: I think I had a crush on my student teacher mrs. Sample in 3rd or 4th grade. I was so mesmerized by her beauty. I used to think I was jealous, but looking back on it and fully knowing what jealousy is now, I definitely wasn't jealous, it was a crush. I started watching and getting off on lesbian porn since I was 11 At 9 I was dared make out with a girl at a sleepover, it was so amazing and excited, we ended up kissing all night. At 13 this girl liked me, I tried to pretend I didn't like her and was weirded out by it, but I really did like her. I was just afraid of what people would think of me then if I talked to her. At 14 i got blackout drunk, found out a girl wanted to kiss me, but no one let her, I was really pissed off it didn't happen and I couldn't understand why. At 13 i showered with my best friend with our bikinis on, internally I was freaking out, and bragged about it to my friends because I thought it was so funny and awesome and showed how close we were. And for some reason I hated girls in high school and wanted everyone to know it (lol) At 16 I came out as bisexual but at 18 I was questioning if I was gay, than I finally came out at 19, and now at 20 I'm finally accepting of who I am. Lol. But I'm not looking for approval or anything. I just wanted to know if I wasnt just over thinking all this.
well what I think is that you dont have to throw a label on yourelf if youre unsure. If you like girls alot and are sexually attracted to females, then yeahyoure gay haha. I wouldnt worry about your sexuality too much. If youre into someone, youre into someone. If that person is a boy or girl, then okay. who cares. For me its more the person thats inside that counts. hope this may have helped a bit
My gf told me about being a young kid and showering naked with her (girl) best friend. Wasn't sexual. Girls get a lot of leeway in terms of what raises gay suspicions.
