Asian 31, nyc. I Have barely any friends and have been feeling really isolated and lonely. I was in the hospital the other day feeling ill and only my sister came to see me. I'm afraid of dying lonely. I'm going through depression and sometimes i just want to end it. I really don't see myself living past 40 as it just gets harder to cope with everyday. I'm usually the person people talk to when they are going through a tough time. In reality, I am feeling exactly the same. I really don't expect to find love or friends. I just want to be able to care for my parents as they're pretty old now. I would like to open up to someone. Perhaps this will help a little.
I can understand where you are coming from! I don't hardly have any friends where I live either. I also work at home so social life isn't something I really have. A lot of people just say go out and meet people but it's not as easy as it sounds. I hope everything with you is okay since you were in the hospital