When do the thoughts of "why can't I find women attractive?" stop? When does the time come when you can stop thinking of your sexuality as a bad thing? When will I stop feeling guilty for having crushes on other guys? Will there be a day where my sexuality won't crop up in my mind? Sorry for the bombardment of questions, I just don't feel too good at the minute, and there are very few people I can discuss this with. :help:
For me, that line of thinking did not stop until I fully accepted myself as being gay and that there was nothing wrong with it and it is just who I was born to be. It took me a while, until I was about 20, before I could come to that conclusion. But once I embraced myself, things got much better and my life improved drastically. Everyone has their own unique journey to go through to self-acceptance and I'm sure you will get there when you're ready.
I second lances post. I felt this way until I self-accepted myself. I believe you can't accept yourself because of what society puts an image on you. You were probably taking the homophobic people too personally. The way I male myself feel better is that I believe homophobic people are just cowards and are jealous of us. I don't know does that help but it helped me. If you accept yourself you are free to live a better life. There are also too many people taking their lives due to this and it should not resort to that as there are always a lot of people to talk to like the people on here and people you can meet and have a chat in person. Good Luck, Gay1234
