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I need to vent just a bit

Discussion in 'General Support and Advice' started by duende84, May 3, 2016.

  1. duende84

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    Its been a while since I posted here. Its also been 4 months since I came out to my parents. The pressure and stress subsided a bit. In the classic way my folks are just ignoring it like they do any big issue.

    Since coming out I have not felt more alone and empty that ever before. I am consumed by my work/career but yet cannot really focus on it. I feel like an aimless wanderer.

    I also have been on a few hookups courtesy of that yellow app but they all have been absolutely horrible.

    My question now is - whats going on? Its like everything is going to shit.

    I yearn for companionship. For true friendship and not just a few minutes of fun.

    My close friends and my folks are 3 hours drive from where I stay and I miss spending time with them.

    Love seems like the most illusive illusion more than ever before.

    I dont get enough sleep these days. I feel empty inside.

    And I am the one that usually urge my friends to stay positive and optimistic! :tears:

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  2. A Mindful Wolf

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    Finding love isn't easy, it isn't even guaranteed. You just gotta keep trying and enjoy the chase.
     
  3. faustian1

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    OP, if you can, could you describe your platonic friendship experiences in the past? Maybe there's something there that can help or provide guidance.
     
  4. duende84

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    Faustian1, I have a few very close straight friends in my home town. Guys (and girls) I can talk with about anything and everything. But they are far away now and I miss having that.

    As far as romantic/intimate friendships goes... I cannot comment. The last time there was any idea of this was so long ago its like it never happened.