Its been a while since I posted here. Its also been 4 months since I came out to my parents. The pressure and stress subsided a bit. In the classic way my folks are just ignoring it like they do any big issue. Since coming out I have not felt more alone and empty that ever before. I am consumed by my work/career but yet cannot really focus on it. I feel like an aimless wanderer. I also have been on a few hookups courtesy of that yellow app but they all have been absolutely horrible. My question now is - whats going on? Its like everything is going to shit. I yearn for companionship. For true friendship and not just a few minutes of fun. My close friends and my folks are 3 hours drive from where I stay and I miss spending time with them. Love seems like the most illusive illusion more than ever before. I dont get enough sleep these days. I feel empty inside. And I am the one that usually urge my friends to stay positive and optimistic! :tears: :rolle:
OP, if you can, could you describe your platonic friendship experiences in the past? Maybe there's something there that can help or provide guidance.
Faustian1, I have a few very close straight friends in my home town. Guys (and girls) I can talk with about anything and everything. But they are far away now and I miss having that. As far as romantic/intimate friendships goes... I cannot comment. The last time there was any idea of this was so long ago its like it never happened.