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I HATE myself.

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  1. Alexrocks1253

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    I hate my sexuality, I feel like everything is boring, and I cringe every time that I say to myself: "You're Pansexual." I really don't want to end up being a cutter (person who cuts themselves):tears::icon_redf
     
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    Try focusing on the things you like about yourself, rather than the things you dislike.

    (*hug*)
     
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    I've tried to before.
     
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    Take up a hobby, or work on the ones you already have. Find things you like to do and take pride in your achievements. One thing I did that really helped me was making a list for small achievements- whether it was coming out to my school or doing the dishes. Looking back on a list of all your successes makes it harder to find fault. Self esteem is hard. But please, don't resort to cutting, don't make that mistake.
     
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    Yeah. I do like videogames,but my parents rarely let me play them.
     
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    Well, you're 15 years old, probably you can talk to your parents. Video games don't kill and as long as you get your sleep and your grades stay the same everything is allright. You could try acting. Makes you look more confident. And if you look more confident, you eventually become it.
     
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    Yeah, I am getting good grades, but they still only let me do it for a little bit...
     
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    Can you discuss with them and persuade them or are they very strict? Maybe you could find out if they are only against certain types of games like shooters. If you like strategy you could bring up that they actually are work out for the brain, similar to chess.
     
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    Be who you are experiment try new things find ways to make things interesting
     
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    They're not against shooters, but they always want me to go outside.
     
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    What about seeking your school councilor? Or a councilor away from school.
    A friend you can 100% trust.
     
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    I have a therapist, but he isn't helping much, or so it seems...
     
  13. anthracite

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    Then I'm sorry I don't know what to do. But as an avid assassins creed player I became interested in parcour. Doing things in real life that you would otherwise do in a game is fun. Have you considered paintballing, parcour or larp? Also you could change your therapist. Or maybe your way of working on problems is the wrong one. What bothers you most? The best you can do is to acquire a healthy solution-orientated mentality.
     
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    It bothers me that I haven't reached self-acceptance yet. :frowning2:
     
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    What's stopping you from accepting yourself?
     
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    I don't know. Maybe my religion, which is Christianity.
     
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    I believe there are things you can read about accepting yourself when you're Christian. Try looking online; it might comfort you.

    Also search through threads on EC for more advice. I think users have posted about this kind of thing in the past, but I can't remember where.
     
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    Ok, because I feel like God hates me. :frowning2:
     
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    Why should he? You believe in him and I'm sure you're trying to be a good person. And that's all that is necessary.
     
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    Don't overthink religion. It can lead to unnecessary guilt. If you're having a hard time accepting the idea or thought of God just keep it simple. Don't blow it out of proportion.

    It's just natural to link sexuality to spirituality, and sometimes it's difficult to understand.