I just live here. But the pain from the Orlando shootings is fat too much

I'm stuck at work for another 5 hours. The club is right down the street from the mall where I work and about 10 minutes away from where I live here in Orlando. My mom said the guy who does her nails is a good friend of hers. He posted a picture on Facebook when he arrived at the club no one's heard from him since. My mom said she called and texted many times but he never answered it was later discovered he was one of the people who died that night.

2 people at the mall who work at Gucci upstairs were confirmed dead when they didn't show up for work yesterday. A friend from work lost 3 of his friends 2 shot dead the others in a coma. Our other work friend works at this club overnight she is ok but a close friend of hers died that same night. Then I went to Zaxbys for lunch today and I lost it when I saw a picture of a guy who worked there next to the register with a caption that read "I'm in heaven now." I asked and the cashier confirmed he was killed too. It's just been hell for all of us here. I hid in the bathroom to type this. I just wanna cry again. Wishing I could hug someone like I hugged my mom last night when I told her how much I loved her.

I'm sorry for my typos I'm a mess and I also didn't want to stay in the bathroom too long.

 

Thank you its been rough but we are managing ok. If I didn't have to work so late I would have gone to the candlelight vigil being held in downtown at 7 but I'm stuck here. It's been a quiet but steady work shift I will say that.

 

It's ok I'm home now. I think I'm just gonna get some much needed sleep and call it a night. My ex randomly texted me while I was at work to see if I was ok and I was like really man? Everything happened before yesterday and you're just now wondering how I am? I said it's whatever but that I was fine since I wasn't there but that I knew of people who had died. It's unfortunate that these things happen but I know these people are in a better place now.