Spirituality?

There are many spiritual people in my family, two aunties in particular who frequently experience encounters with sprits and have psychic abilities which have been proven to be true... When my grandfather was very sick we brought his hospital bed into their house and it had been a while. One day my auntie calls my mother and says 'Today is the day he will pass, I can feel it, we must go over'. That day he did pass.

I'm not here to try and prove anything to anyone, a lot of people don't believe in this stuff and that's fine. I've just recently become intact with spiritual feelings and experiences. I've been remembering stuff that makes sense. This one night, I get home from going out, my dad had picked me up. I had done something extremely bad a week or two before. As I walk into the house my dad, out of nowhere says 'Please don't ever hurt or disappoint me' and gave me a kiss. I thought it was the strangest thing. I then went to take a shower, as I got out he was in my room and had discovered what I had done. Worst night ever.

My dad is also a spiritual man and he always says very weird things that seem to make sense long after. I probably sound crazy, but I'm not. None of my family know I'm a lesbian either. Today, he got me from work. We're in the car and he asks 'So how's your boyfriend going?' I stayed silent and just laughed... Minutes pass, we get out of the car and he asks again, sarcastically, then as we walk inside he says 'It's okay, when your ready you can tell me'. And walks off. Is this strange to anyone? Or was he joking or? I don't get what that meant.

Bear in mind my father used to (probably still is) a homophobe. He wouldn't say anything rude to a gay person in real life or treat them different knowing they are gay if that makes sense. As a kid he'd say things like 'If they legalise same sex marriage they might as well let us marry animals' .... Side note, my brother is gay aswell, he is out now, my father once told me he would never be able to speak about it or intervene with his 'lifestyle'. He has a fairly good relationship with my brother, although my brother is very distant from my whole family since he's been out. And I understand why, our family is complicated and not the happiest of ones...

When I was about 12, I had no idea I was gay yet. We were watching TV with the whole family, and it was one of those talent shows that came on. A brother and sister - both gay, came to sing as a duet and told their story of accepting themselves regarding their religious ethnic family. My dad laughed and sad 'Poor parents, TWO gay kids, how un lucky'

I never knew why that occurrence always played in my mind as a child, and funnily enough I turned out gay aswell... Whenever I think of coming out to him I remember that moment and know I will disappoint him. He claims to have an 'ancient soul' who has lived many past lives centuries ago, and he goes on about visions he has of his past life and he disassociates every day and sees them. This makes sense to me.

What is everyone's thoughts and opinions on all of this? Is anyone spiritual or has any experiences they would like to share ? I won't on a tangent and sorry I started talking about things all over the place...