There has been a few times with two of my different friends that I have obsessively wondered if I liked them more than a friend. I feel like deep down I know that I don't, but I continue to obsessively worry about it to the point where I will try to picture sexual situations with them. I don't like doing this and don't find it arousing, but I still do it to check if I will like it. Or stare at a picture of them to try to decide if I am attracted to them. I do this with other guys as well because I can't get past worrying if I'm attracted to guys. It's dumb, I know I am sexually attracted and romantically attracted to girls, which I won't go into because I already addressed it in my other posts. It went from worrying constantly that I was gay to sometimes wondering if I'm bi since I can't be gay since I like girls. Worrying about being bi is even more difficult because you can still like girls and be bi. I don't fantasize about guys unless I force myself to and don't enjoy it, but do like fantasizing about girls and find it very arousing. From what I have said does it sound like gay or bisexual behavior? Does it sound like an actual "crush" or same sex attraction or does it sound like I am overthinking and worrying about irrational thoughts? All inputs are extremely welcomed, thank you!!!
You answered your own question. You say yourself that you don't enjoy fantasizing about guys, don't find sexual situations with them arousing, and that deep down you know that you're not attracted to men. However, you are easily able to do all of the above for girls. Therefore, you are not gay, since you are attracted to girls. You are very very likely not bi either, since you have never been attracted to/aroused by men. By canceling those out, you are straight. You're definitely overthinking this, mate. Just calm down. You don't need to "check" if you suddenly like guys--you know what it's like to like/be attracted to someone, and according to you, it's only to girls. It's a safe bet that you're straight.
I mean I find guys attractive I just don't feel attracted to them really. During these "checks" it added to my confusion because they gay porn or trying to masterbate to these forced fantasies have produced some penile reaction. Still think I'm just overthinking or?
So, you said "I find guys attractive; I just don't feel attracted to them really." You just contradicted yourself. That said, I really think you're straight. Just because it gives you a boner doesn't necessarily mean you're attracted to it. Sometimes, boners just happen for no reason.
I just mean that I find guys attractive as in I can tell what guys look good. I think everyone can do that, but maybe not. I just don't feel a pull to them I guess, or I don't feel turned on by them that I'm aware of
I was just responding to the other poster. Thanks for both of your responses btw. It just gives me anxiety because of the excess worry. Did you see my response to your first post?
