Its weird I was asked out today and it made me angry.

So earlier today I stopped by the library to look at some local colleges and research if I want to go to school to be a doctor or not. So anyways while I was there A guy grabs a book and sits at the table across from me and I assume that he is reading it. So you know how you have peripheral vision after 10 minutes I just notice he is literally gazing straight at me. So I stop typing and look straight at him and he just raises his eyebrows and smiles at me to be honest he was actually very attractive I guess.

So anyways he gets up returns the book to the shelf and comes and sits at the table where I am at and asks me where he knows me from becuase I look familiar. I explain to him that im not from around here so he probably has me confused with somebody else. He looks at my laptop and notices I have the pages up of schools im looking at and so we strike up some generic conversation and he asks me if I want to "hang out" this weekend.

I cant explain but I was just overwhelmed with anger and angry that he even had the audacity to ask me out. This is not the first time it has happened this has happened on 3 occassions to me and I dont know I always get angry when men ask me out.

Im not sure what this feeling is maybe its because i wasnt expecting it I dont know he seemed really nice to be honest but it made me angry and I dont understand why it was.

Is this weird?

 

Well when I really dont know i thought it was a normal conversation. Then when he showed like romantic interest twoards me something flipped and I just became angry and shot his offer down. Prior to that one time was at the gym but the reason I was upset that time is becuase I was finishing my 6 mile run and after I finished and headed to the lockeroom this guy power walked from the otherside of the gym to go in right behind me.

I was just washing the sweat off my face and rising off and he just said hey I said hi and he looked around and nobody else was there and he just said your kinda cute and put both his hands on the back of my shoulders and started rubbing them. I immediatley said not interested walked away and left. He was not unnatractive or anything but I dont go to the gym for that so his expressed interest I dont know it just angered me.

I also dont like the fact that he took it upon himself to touch me like that when he didnt even know me I dont care how good looking he was hat makes him think he had the right to just do that it pissed me off a little bit.

It has happened at work as well. I guess for me If im not familiar with somebody I dont know it just angers me when guys i am not really familiar with express interest in me I guess.

When its a guy I know or have gotten comftorble with or know at least enough and they do it then its fine. But I dont know maybe its the random out of the blueness I dont know I cant explain it but i dont like it and it makes me angry for some reason.

When I think of guys I have dated or been with in the past it was always somebody I was familiar with and so it happened naturally and never was sprung upon me if that makes sense I dont know its hard to explain.

 

sorry if i dont respond after this it means im asleep. I wont say where I live or grew up becuase thats personal identifying information and I am not revealing any of that on this site. As far as the men I have dated in the past first was in highschool but I knew him literally since we were both 5 years old we knew eachother pretty much our whole lives and he just flat out asked me one day if I had a boyfriend and if I wanted one. Shocked me because I had no idea he was gay but yeah that went from there.

The second guy I met while I was working at an amusement park he was one of the performers at the park and I would watch the shows he put on everyday it was my first job out of highschool. One day I got off very late and it was like 12:00 and we both ended up on the same bus headed downtown and he said he recognized me because my job was to entertain a bunch of people all day at the park and it was close to the stage he performed at.

This was like 2 months after working there and I had also interacted with him a bit at the exclusive employee only parties. We were pretty much the only two people on the bus and he asked me if he could sit next to me and we just talked and I walked home with him and we started hanging out more and the rest is self explanatory.

Then I met a guy while I was a server at a restuarant he was nice and about 10 years older than me but he frequeted the restuarant. He was the nicest to me. The thing is i dont know why those instances didnt bother me and these recent ones are i guess. Im to sleepy to think about it any longer maybe tomorrow i can revisit this issue.