So. Yesterday I was in a shit mood. Felt like a guy yesterday, and people kept calling me she/her and my depression didn't help. Let alone my mothers annoying and angering parenting. Crossy's logic: whelp lets saw your legs into bits So. So now my legs are covered (again) in ladders of cuts all over my thighs, my whole thighs. I am such fucking trash
It's okay. I won't make you feel like crap and you don't need to explain your feelings if you don't want to, just know I'm there for you.
You are not trash. Dysphoria is difficult, and I have done similar things to try and cope with it. If you cannot stop, please seek help as soon as possible. In the meantime here are a few tips at coping in non-harmful ways. 1. Hold an ice cube in your hand until it melts. It hurts like hell, but it doesn't cause permanent damage. 2. Use a red marker to draw on yourself in the places you feel like cutting. Again not permanent, but gives you a blood like "visual" that might help. It takes awhile to fade, and you can even use bandages to cover up your fake cuts. Many times cutting has a ritual unique to each person, so this might help. Oh, and you can also use red nail polish as well. 3. The classic: wear a rubber band around your wrist and snap it hard every time you feel like cutting. Again, short term pain without damage. 4. My last tip is this. Use a glow stick. Light it up when you feel like hurting yourself and promise yourself that you won't cut until the glow stick dies. Often the urge fades before that happens. I hope some of these coping skills might help you, Sebby45
