I can't help but gaze at people I find attractive, exspecially girls. I hope nobody sees it: it's embarassing, maybe also unpolite. I look at them from head to toe, like a scanner. I'm NOT doing it on purpose, it's like sneezing with closed eyes: you can't sneeze with opened eyes. How can I hide this thing? Well, sometimes it's on purpose, but moderately. I feel stupid anyway. Today I was hiding behind a column just to admire someone I know. This is not what someone in their twenties should do. The fact that most of them are girls makes me feel guilty even more. Female body is too much objectified, I don't want to contribute. People are so mature outside there, and I look like a teen craving for sex. Even during university lectures. University lectures! What a fool. Doh.
Don't worry, finding girls attractive and sexualising them is not a bad thing at all. And what you do is who you are, I remember in high school, how I was watching all the hot boys but I had to hide it, so I used to death stare them. I'm 22 and I'll admit sometimes I see a hot Guy and look at them, then look down if they look up at me. Also a lot of people are sexualised in this world, even men are, just watch shows targeted to heterosexual women, men are commonly sexualised in those shows.
