Why are we here? I need to vent out! Advice is very welcome

Couple important questions.
How long have you been in school?
And how much longer do you have to go?
Do you really need two jobs?

Working two jobs and going to school, you deserve a pat on the back for working so damn hard. Seriously, I only worked one crap job while going to tech school. I think anyone gets a little down when they are busting their butt and it seems like others are achieving their goals. I know my sister was pretty down when her friends were getting married and in good jobs while she was still in school.

Taking a step back to examine things isn't a bad idea. You live with your parents, so do you really need two jobs? I get the be independent part, but perhaps two jobs is hurting your academics or staunching a little creativity that would put you above average. I can tell you from experience lots of stress or way too many hours at work makes it hard for me to be creative.

Maybe you just need a break, a few days or a week to unplug, relax and de-stress. Clear your head and get your end goal of production back into focus.

 

Going through a similar experience as you. For me things are getting worse and worse, feeling depressed and hopeless. Feeling life is pointless

 

Something about the mid-twenties seems to trigger the feelings of "why am I bothering with this? what good am I? what good is life?". No idea why that is. It sounds like you might be flirting with depression again, so do keep a close eye on things.

Lex

 

Social media is a destructive media. Especially if you believe the glossy lies other people spew. It's so easy for their lives to look rosy and happy when they get to select what is portrayed. And some of them may divulge negative things, yes, but it's still all lies. Just all lies.

But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe all those self serving posts really do truthfully represent those peoples lives, hopes, fears, insecurities... but I'll never believe it.

Just something to think about. Social media sucks the life out of people by giving people completely unrealistic expectations.

I wish you all kinds of better. But please, don't compare yourself to people on the net.

 

I can definitely relate, I'll be 31 tomorrow and work a full-time job, about 40 hrs/week, and a part-time job which depends on the week but usually about 20 hrs/wk. I work every single day, I will be taking my first day off for 2017 in a week and a half. I keep questioning how much of my struggle right now is because I'm so stressed out all the time. I also wonder if my stress has brought on more stress by bringing up all this questioning (gender identity/sexual orientation) and at the very least my work life does not allow me the time to go see a therapist. I know I can relate to not knowing what I'm doing here and not feeling like I'm that good at my job, but not having any other skills to go off. I don't know that I have any advice, but wanted to let you know that I relate and you are not alone.

 

I can relate man. 26, still in school, working all the time when I'm not in class, no time to socialize any more and no friends around to socialize with...plus the general feelings of disconnect that I've come to associate with being trans...

I'm studying visual arts. What am I going to do with a degree in that? How many more part time jobs can I hold down before I lose it? The thing that stands for both of us though, is that we've got too much time invested into our degrees already to back out. Yeah, maybe it is depression creeping up again, but we can't afford to let it take the wheel and derail our progress so far. And even on the days it doesn't feel like it, we have made progress, haven't we? I don't know how much longer you have to go, but you can get through it.

As for social media, I know I have major problems with it. I get depressed when I use it, and unproductive, too. I'm trying not to use it much for the time being. Taking note of your feelings when you use social media might help you decide whether or not you should cut back on it.

When you put depression and anxiety together, you find that you're in a state of mind where you don't feel motivated to do a damn thing, but at the same time you start criticising yourself for not doing a damn thing, which only makes you feel worse, and it becomes a cycle. Break that cycle. Start small, make a list. Find time to do the things that give you a sense of meaning.