So....I have a friend who's recently out. He's the ever popular twink that everyone appears to just adore. He's getting quite a bit of attention, and actually, he's not even fully out yet. I was a huge supporter during his coming out process, and it's just been...pretty smooth sailing. I'm happy it wasn't like mine. Amazing how times have changed, for sure. However, I am jealous. It's such an intense jealousy that it is almost crippling. When I came out, I lost some friends and a few days after I came out, this crazy girl tried to attack me and called me the F word in front of everyone in our locker area. That was 10 years ago and I'm still struggling...boooooo! I also don't get much attention online from guys I am interested in. I worry so much that there is something wrong with me. Am I that incredibly ugly? Am I saying the wrong thing? Do I smell? haha. I worry that I'll be that old man who's all alone and watching everyone else find their happiness. Sorry for my ranting!
