A while ago, I was talking to my friends who I had just come out to and they were asking me if I liked anybody. I said I did and was pretty sure he was gay, too. They messaged him asking and he said that he was bi. They conversated with him for about 20 minutes and then one of them said that I thought he was attractive. He sent me a message saying that they told him and stuff. We talked for a while, berp derp derp, you know. We've been having conversations almost every day now for the past week or so. I fucked up once and made fun of self-harm, not realizing he does it (Yes, I am an asshole, I know. I only made fun of it because people are too good to hurt themselves over things.). So that was a bump in the road. I've also had to make him feel better a few times when people made fun of him for attempted suicide (I hate the human race omfg). We started sending picture messages back and forth and he sent me a few pictures that were kind of revealing (Mostly just cut off at the chest without a shirt on, not much). But ok most of this has been pointless. Although just yesterday he sent me a picture in his underwear o_o . I was on tumblr the other day and he was doing anonymous questions and one came up that asked if he was a virgin/has a crush. He said that he was a virgin and that he doesn't have a crush, but he would imagine their looks. The whole thing that he said made me wonder if he actually does like me or if he's just messing with me and doesn't actually like me at all. This whole post dragged on, sorry about that ._. I forgot to mention we go to different schools and haven't even seen each other in real life :bang: I'm pretty dumb for having feelings for him already. :bang: :bang: :bang: :tears: :bang:
First things first - be careful about sending "revealing" pictures of each other back and forth. As you're 14, and I'm assuming he's also underage, sending material like that can be illegal under child pornography distribution laws. You know, fyi. Now as far as developing feelings for him - you don't need to feel stupid. It sounds like you've had some pretty in-depth conversations with him and he's opened your eyes to some things. It's understandable. But the surest way to figure out what the situation with the two of you is is to ask him how he feels. If you're up for it, tell him how you feel first. Demonstrating honesty will usually bring it out of other people.
I'm not sending any revealing pictures, I'm really self-conscious and stuff so I would never do that. And thanks for the advice, I'll have to do that. But I'm really nervous to ._. .-. :bang:
