I'm confused, lost, stuck in my head, can't talk to people and nothing makes sense to me anymore. I recently had a HUGE crush on my best friend and i told him and he is quite damn sure he is straight. So now that the problem is out of the way, I just don't know what to do anymore. I've lost all passion to do anything. I don't like playing music like i used to, I can't socialize anymore (like seriously i physically cannot talk to my friends). words are not coming out. I'm always stressed about school, can't commit to things, I just can't do anything well. everything is just so.. dull and bleak... What I'm wondering is what is going on with me? Am I depressed? I don't feel sad all the time, everything's just kinda meh. Can anyone help me? does anyone know what these feelings or whatever you call them are telling me? :icon_conf
That sounds like depression to me. I'd seek help - from a school counselor, therapist, or whatever. It sounds to me like you're just grieving the loss of your crush and finding it difficult to move on. Hang in there. (*hug*)
It could just be that you've made this friend the center of your world for so long that now you don't know what to do anymore. Give yourself a deadline. Like until Sunday morning to do whatever (except drugs of course) to get back to your old self. I'm sure you'll have a new crush later on in the year, so don't worry about it. ^_^
The same exact thing happened to me and one of my best friends, except it couldn't work out because she was homosexual (I was born a male). Needless to say, I went through the same things you are going through. WonderEgg is probably right. Your friend became the center of your world. That's what happened to me. I had a crush on her for two years before I told her. When I found out it couldn't work out, I was devastated. But it gets better. My advice, if you are still friends, stay friends. Don't destroy your friendship. After a while, you'll be able to come to terms with it and move on. How long has this been going on for?
its been going on for about 2 weeks now, I'm going to see a school counselor because last time I was depressed I saw a psychologist and it didn't help at all. I think a school counselor would be better as they would understand my situation more because its in school. thank you all so much for the advice