The Happy Part; The Sad Part and The Downright Confusing Part

Alrite, so here's the happy part..There's this girl and we have known eachother for the past 10 years or so..But we were'nt always as close at least until a few months ago..And now she is like one of the closest friends I got..During these past few months, I have developed deep feelings..Its safe to say that I'm head over heels for her..I can be myself with her and my stomach does these weird flip flops whenever I'm near her..I find myself grinning like an idiot whenever I think about her and I like taking care of her and hugging her and stuff...Is this how love's supposed to feel like??I've never been in love before so I got no clue..

Here's the sad part...A few months ago, she told me that there was this guy she liked in our school and that he liked her back..But they were'nt in any kind of relationship because this guy was being all hot and cold..I did a full fledged background check on him and discovered that he was a decent guy who indeed had genuine feelings for her..She asked me for advise and as much as it killed me inside, I told her to pursue him..He is a decent guy and he can make her happy..And with that, I tried my level best to fall out of love but it's difficult because I see her everyday..And she hugs me but I don't hug her back anymore..She kisses my cheek and tells me that I am the greatest friend she ever had..And she sticks to me like glue..I try my best to ignore her but I can't because she is wherever I am..Dont get me wrong; I LOVE the fact that we are spending so much time together but it makes my head and my heart hurt...Did I mention I have inappropriate dreams about her too??? Dreams that make me wanna take a very cold shower afterwards..Is that normal???

And now for the downright confusing part...And it all started a month ago...We were in Chemistry class and she always sat beside me in chemistry..Out of nowhere, she tells me that she doesn't like the guy anymore and they talked it out and decided to remain friends..I said I was sorry but I was doing a happy dance in my mind(!)..But then to my disappointment she tells me that there is someone else..Someone she has known for more than 10 years, someone she considers to be a very good friend and someone who is always there for her..It may be my imagination or my hormones talking; but was my very straight friend talking about me??? I thought of it for a while but then concluded that it might be one of the guys she hangs out with and trust me, most of her friends are guys with huge crushes on her..And I don't blame them because she is pretty amazing, in all aspects...Anyways I asked her if i knew the person and she just said that I knew the person very well...And the thing is, I only have one guy best friend and he is in a relationship with my girl best friend..And I also noticed how she kept using the word "person" instead of the word 'him'...On top of this; a few days ago, she told me that if I were a guy, I would be her ideal boyfriend...I simply nodded my head and did'nt comment on it...I'm not showing off or anything but a lot of straight girls I know have said the very same thing to me so I didn't really pay attention to it..But all those girls don't keep bringing it up...She on the other hand loves to mention it over and over again..Just yesterday, she told me several times how it felt like I was her boyfriend and then she laughed about it...I didn't comment or anything but just smiled along with her..

At this point, I am so very confused!!!!!
Fun Fact: She doesn't even know that I'm gay...I'm only out to like three people; people who haven't revealed it to anyone else including her....
And I'm pretty sure she is not gay either..She might be bi but I don't know what to think at this point...
Any and all words of advise will be highly appreciated..Thank you for taking your time to read this..I know its very big but once I start writing, I can't stop myself..Ok I'm Done..

 

Hey...
I'm sorry for the delayed reply (I got my exams going on; pain in the ass..-.-)
THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH for your advise(*hug*), I needed it...
And I'm thinking of breaking it to her after our exams are over (I don't want her to get side-tracked by my coming out or anything).....So, How do you think I should do it???
Should I just come out and drop the bomb or should I give her a back story and then scale up to it??I was thinking that after our exams are over; I would take her out to lunch, just the two of us and then I would break it to her...But then again I would not want her to think that I had tricked her into a date or anything... ( although I really really want to take her out and stuff)..
Anyways...I am in desperate need of advise; Again..-.-
Any and all help will be highly appreciated......