(CAUTION: May be a bit long, hope that's ok:smilewave) Hi, i am new to this site in general, even though i have made some posts previous, i don't come to the site that much because i honestly don't have much to say:icon_roll i guess the gay thing isn't something i may get used to at the moment, anyways that doesn't mean i don't have racing thoughts due to sex drives & hormones; i mean i am human after all:lol: obviously as y'all know there is nothing easy about coming to terms with this new life, of being gay/lesbian, or whatever you classify yourself; i can deal with little movie clips or pictures getting me horny or people i met, what i sometimes find frustrating is seeing a person & getting infatuated by them, whether it's a person you conversed with for only 5 minutes or someone on T.V:bang: it makes me feel pathetic & annoyed, mostly because sometimes after a while that obsession with the person or thing wear's off, i don't know why this happens to me sometimes:dry: the last time it did, i was 12-13 years old, & afterwards i felt dumb, i barely knew anything about the person, & it didn't help that they were up to no good. This may sound like a silly post, but why do i have these infatuations? i'd be lying:eusa_liar if i said that i don't let my mind wander & think about love,(which as nice as it is, i don't enjoy) but i can't bring myself to because it's strange thinking of myself being in a relationship with a dude:confused2: sorry to people who are open & out; it's weird but yet when i fantasize it feels so normal, but when i snap out of it, it's soo not something i would do. Recently i went somewhere & i saw a person, & i became infatuated with them mentally, not knowing a thing about them, however the infatuation wasn't sexual or anything, some of it was mostly that i found them good looking & the other that the person was really nice, but maybe that's because it was their job. It's not been a dangerous obsession but at times it bugs me, why can't these type of thoughts just go away, oh and know i having thoughts about comic book based characters sigh. i don't get it, why can one be so infatuated & obsessed it's bugging the:***: out of me.
