Can I whine?

I don't know, I just feel sad and alone and afraid.

I found out earlier today that my crush has a girlfriend, which I guess was not that unexpected. It didn't even hit me that hard, I thought I'd get drunk or go in a blind rage if I find out he has one for sure, but instead it was more kind of a slow death on the inside.

The point is, it still hurt. And when I told a friend about this, he was kind enough to explain to me that what I feel isn't pain, I'm just being 'disillusioned', which kind of made me feel like shit. Clearly, I'm too much of an idiot to know how I feel.

So now I'm just standing here unsure of what to do. My crush's not on Facebook and I just can't stop thinking about what he's probably doing with that girl right now (it's night over here)...

Anyways, who wants pancakes? Hope you're all having a better day/night than I am.

 

In some bizarre twist of fate, a common friend actually asked me to go with them to see Fast&Furious on Saturday and he was supposed to come as well (along with the 'lucky one' you know what exactly is so special about this girl anyway?), but didn't.

I keep wondering if seeing them cuddling in the theater next to me would have hurt more than the fact it's now been 52 days since I last saw him. And with him dropping out of college, that number will probably just go towards infinity.

Damn, I can't get over it.

 

Lol! Those actually made me smile, thanks for sharing them.

I shall aspire to this:

 

Thanks guys. ^_^ I think I'm gonna hit the bed in a few... (only to sleep, sadly )