So I'm having some troubles. Today all the theater people went to lunch so we had 9 people in a 5 seater car because no one else had a car and this girl was sitting on my lap. It's not that I like her specifically but more that I liked that a girl was sitting on my lap. The thing is that my family is really accepting/liberal and I'm really accepting of others and everything but I still feel like its wrong that I liked a girl sitting on my lap. I don't know why. Maybe you guys could help? it's not that I like the person specifically but that I liked having a girl sitting on my lap in general. I have no idea why I wouldn't be okay with the fact that I like girls except that sadly, I don't think that deep down I want to be happy, I know for sure that I think I don't deserve to be happy and that this feeling of being happy with a girl isn't okay because it makes me feel happy and content. I can't think of any other reason why the feeling would feel weird or bad because my parents are really open and accepting, I'm a Christian but not in the strict ways and have a very non religious family so that's not affecting my feelings, I accept homosexuality and think people should love who they love and be who they are, so the before stated reason is all I can think of maybe why I'm feeling weird about how I like girls. I can explain more if needed.
hmm..i get it completely. i feel the same way...but unfortunately i myself am in need of advice. sorry
i haven't had the same experience but i understand. i feel very uncomfortable when friends or ramdon girls change clothes in front of me... i wanna look but i feel it's wrong... and otherwise they will notice i'm staring at them. i think it's pretty normal to feel like that, cause it's a kind of contact we don't usually have...
