I feel so ashamed... I don't know what caused it, but for some reason today I just feel really ashamed t be me... I mean.. I've been gone for a week from home and I resolved to come out this week, and when I looked at my mom today... I just lost all my nerve. I had my ex call me acting all weird and lost my nerve even more and when I looked at myself in the mirror I saw the body that I hate and I couldn't do anything but lay down on my bed and cry... I just feel ashamed of myself and I know I shouldn't be, but I am. I just don't know what to do anymore... I have to come out soon, I don't have any choice if I want proper accommodations in college and I want to come out. I'm just so afraid of what's going to happen, and I'm so afraid that I'll never make it or find happiness... I'm just really afraid... :tears:
(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*) I'm sorry I can't really offer too much advice. Only hugs. I wish it was a real hug.
It's alright, it does help a lot, I just don't know what I'm going to do anymore. I feel like life is falling down on top of me again... Thank you for the kind words and support though it helps a lot... (*hug*)
Try to think of the strength it takes to do even harder things with direr consequences, and know that people have done them. Sorry you've been having a bad time. Hopefully you can remember that everyone here is offering our distant well-wishes that you'll be able to summon the courage. Just remember: it's hardest to deal with just before you come out, and once you do, it gets easier as time goes on.
