Victory! - Empty Closets - A safe online community for gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered people coming out

LdSlnce · 13th Dec 2011, 04:45 PM

The reason I say victory is because I finally figured out how to post a new thread! It's pure luck I even figured it out. Well anyways...

Hello lovely people, you may call me Ld. I am lesbian. I have just recently accpeted this fact

To say I'm happy about this is an understatement. I've been searching for months of ways to get rid of the way I feel for the sake of my family. I had resorted to rejecting this part of me and getting in relationships with boys in hopes of "getting rid of the gay." Pathetic maybe, but I don't regret it in a way. If I didn't do it, I know I would have continued to question my sureness of my sexuality. But I'm free now so...Victory!

I am the middle child of 5. Also the only girl. My younger brothers and I don't really know the older ones because of circumstances. For a while I thought that's why I liked girls; I'm surrounded boys. But it was jus an excuse to reject and deny a part of me that can't be helped.

Grammar and spelling...important to me. It may have to do with me being a writer. Not professionally, but I write stories that I post on a different site. So I try to always make sure I write everything up just right. It's come to be an obsession... Granted, I will not correct others UNLESS they ask. It only bothers me when something of mine is wrong...especially when I re-read about 5 times.

As that little coming out thing says, only one friend knows. I did come out to my parents, but I booked it back to the closet by saying that it was a phase and that it was over. Can you say Pinocchio

? That was a big mistake, but it happened...and I don't plan on fixing it anytime soon. If I do, it will be in February when my older brother comes to visit with his wife. And even then...force will be required.

Music is a big part of my life. Listen, play, sing. That's what I do. Listening is pretty much constant. Playing is a work in prrogress. Singing is a bit of a secret. Shh! It helped me through a lot of difficult parts of my life. Just like it has done for many others. So Music is a very close friend.

My friend who knows is a very complicated situation. Let's call him Puppy. That's my nickname for him

. He only knows because he told me he liked me

. So after a few weeks, I told him that I was lesbian...he was upset and angry. More so than he let on. You can get more information on that in my blog (which is a pretty lame one). But he's supportive in a way... He doesn't dislike me now, so that's a good sign

. He doesn't like the way I described my mom's view on homosexuality and what not...

Speaking of mommy... I love her. But she hurts me without really knowing it...she thought she was helping when she said that I need to ignore it because it was a phase. She pretty much thought I was trying to find something wrong with me. Which really hurt... There's nothing wrong with me. I'm into girls only, so what? It wasn't a choice, it was just something that's been with me for a long time. But no matter what she's done, no matter what she's said, I still love her and will do almost anything to please her. Only almost because rejecting this part of me is no longer an option.

I am not happy with being lesbian. I'm ok with it. For me to be happy about it, I'd have to get my family gathered, look them all in the eye (obviously not all at once, but one by one), and proudly, but nervously say, "I'm lesbian. Love me or hate me, but it will not change a thing." Not that I'll say it just like that, but the point is that I will be happy being lesbian once I've come out to my (whole) family.

But that's it...I really look forward to being on this site pretty regularly. Thanks for bothering to read, bye for now

-Ld

Aeon Magus · 13th Dec 2011, 04:53 PM

Hello, Ld, and welcome to EC.

13th Dec 2011, 05:18 PM

Hello To You and Welcome! : )))

alex2020 · 13th Dec 2011, 05:32 PM

Bienvenue!!

thecat06 · 13th Dec 2011, 05:56 PM

Hello and Welcome!!

Doctor Faustus · 13th Dec 2011, 06:37 PM

Well done!

Hello and welcome!

Youngbutproud · 13th Dec 2011, 06:55 PM

Hey welcome to the EC world will do whatever we can to help you get though whatever your going through

dl72 · 13th Dec 2011, 07:40 PM

Welcome.

LdSlnce · 13th Dec 2011, 08:26 PM

Whoa 0.0 didn't expect any replies! Thanks everyone, really looking forward to being on here, it seems like a good place to to come to(:

Nazo · 13th Dec 2011, 09:02 PM

Heyo, welcome to EC!

Colton · 13th Dec 2011, 09:06 PM

Hello

Welcome to EC!!!

Artemicion · 13th Dec 2011, 09:27 PM

Hi and welcome to EC!

Hana Solo · 13th Dec 2011, 11:32 PM

Welcome!

J Snow · 14th Dec 2011, 01:28 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LdSlnce

Whoa 0.0 didn't expect any replies! Thanks everyone, really looking forward to being on here, it seems like a good place to to come to(:

Well you're gonna get them!!!!

Hi.

**Gerry** · 14th Dec 2011, 01:45 AM

Hi and welcome to EC!

hml8 · 14th Dec 2011, 02:00 AM

hi, welcome to EC, if you need a chat don't hesitate to wall post me

and nice speech btw!

ESA3NZ · 14th Dec 2011, 04:32 AM

Hello there!

silverhalo · 14th Dec 2011, 04:35 AM

Hey welcome to EC.

13th Dec 2011, 04:45 PM	#1
LdSlnce Banned Regular Member Gender: Fancy Orientation: I like who I like Out Status: It's getting complicated! Location: Not On Your Street Posts: 153 Join Date: Dec 2011	Victory! The reason I say victory is because I finally figured out how to post a new thread! It's pure luck I even figured it out. Well anyways... Hello lovely people, you may call me Ld. I am lesbian. I have just recently accpeted this fact To say I'm happy about this is an understatement. I've been searching for months of ways to get rid of the way I feel for the sake of my family. I had resorted to rejecting this part of me and getting in relationships with boys in hopes of "getting rid of the gay." Pathetic maybe, but I don't regret it in a way. If I didn't do it, I know I would have continued to question my sureness of my sexuality. But I'm free now so...Victory! I am the middle child of 5. Also the only girl. My younger brothers and I don't really know the older ones because of circumstances. For a while I thought that's why I liked girls; I'm surrounded boys. But it was jus an excuse to reject and deny a part of me that can't be helped. Grammar and spelling...important to me. It may have to do with me being a writer. Not professionally, but I write stories that I post on a different site. So I try to always make sure I write everything up just right. It's come to be an obsession... Granted, I will not correct others UNLESS they ask. It only bothers me when something of mine is wrong...especially when I re-read about 5 times. As that little coming out thing says, only one friend knows. I did come out to my parents, but I booked it back to the closet by saying that it was a phase and that it was over. Can you say Pinocchio ? That was a big mistake, but it happened...and I don't plan on fixing it anytime soon. If I do, it will be in February when my older brother comes to visit with his wife. And even then...force will be required. Music is a big part of my life. Listen, play, sing. That's what I do. Listening is pretty much constant. Playing is a work in prrogress. Singing is a bit of a secret. Shh! It helped me through a lot of difficult parts of my life. Just like it has done for many others. So Music is a very close friend. My friend who knows is a very complicated situation. Let's call him Puppy. That's my nickname for him . He only knows because he told me he liked me . So after a few weeks, I told him that I was lesbian...he was upset and angry. More so than he let on. You can get more information on that in my blog (which is a pretty lame one). But he's supportive in a way... He doesn't dislike me now, so that's a good sign . He doesn't like the way I described my mom's view on homosexuality and what not... Speaking of mommy... I love her. But she hurts me without really knowing it...she thought she was helping when she said that I need to ignore it because it was a phase. She pretty much thought I was trying to find something wrong with me. Which really hurt... There's nothing wrong with me. I'm into girls only, so what? It wasn't a choice, it was just something that's been with me for a long time. But no matter what she's done, no matter what she's said, I still love her and will do almost anything to please her. Only almost because rejecting this part of me is no longer an option. I am not happy with being lesbian. I'm ok with it. For me to be happy about it, I'd have to get my family gathered, look them all in the eye (obviously not all at once, but one by one), and proudly, but nervously say, "I'm lesbian. Love me or hate me, but it will not change a thing." Not that I'll say it just like that, but the point is that I will be happy being lesbian once I've come out to my (whole) family. But that's it...I really look forward to being on this site pretty regularly. Thanks for bothering to read, bye for now -Ld

13th Dec 2011, 04:53 PM	#2
Aeon Magus EC's Blue Gaylien Full Member Gender: I go peepee standing up xD Orientation: I'm a Man's Man Out Status: The people that I care about most. Location: South Africa Posts: 2,262 Join Date: Nov 2011	Re: Victory! Hello, Ld, and welcome to EC. __________________ Sing me a Painting, I'll paint you a Song Inside my heart is breaking. My make-up may be flaking, but my smile still stays on. The show must go on.

13th Dec 2011, 05:18 PM	#3
Gitano65 Guest Posts: n/a	Re: Victory! Hello To You and Welcome! : )))

13th Dec 2011, 05:32 PM	#4
alex2020 EC Addict Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Everybody important, and anybody who asks. Location: Florida Age: 19 Posts: 1,437 Join Date: Aug 2011	Re: Victory! Bienvenue!! __________________ “Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.”

13th Dec 2011, 05:56 PM	#5
thecat06 EC's Biggest LNJF and SNL fan!! Full Member Gender: Let's say Pangender! Orientation: Let's say gay!! Out Status: Out to parents, campus, and 75 friends on facebook Location: Central and Northern Ohio Age: 19 Posts: 2,504 Join Date: Jun 2011	Re: Victory! Hello and Welcome!! __________________ So many years have passed, since I proclaimed my independence, my mission, my aim, and my vision, so secure, content to live each day like it's my last, it's wonderful to know, that I could be, something more than what I dreamed, far beyond what I could see -Dream Theater

13th Dec 2011, 06:37 PM	#6
Doctor Faustus EC's resident Philosopher at Large Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Not straight. But only interested in men. xD Out Status: People who ask me. People whom I trust. Location: Basingstoke Posts: 1,610 Join Date: Oct 2011	Re: Victory! Well done! Hello and welcome! __________________ "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." - Mother Teresa.

13th Dec 2011, 06:55 PM	#7
Youngbutproud New Regular Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: A few people Location: California Age: 13 Posts: 40 Join Date: Dec 2011	Re: Victory! Hey welcome to the EC world will do whatever we can to help you get though whatever your going through __________________ what would the world do without us?

13th Dec 2011, 07:40 PM	#8
dl72 EC Addict Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: To one person only Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 350 Join Date: Jun 2011	Re: Victory! Welcome.

13th Dec 2011, 08:26 PM	#9
LdSlnce Banned Regular Member Gender: Fancy Orientation: I like who I like Out Status: It's getting complicated! Location: Not On Your Street Posts: 153 Join Date: Dec 2011	Re: Victory! Whoa 0.0 didn't expect any replies! Thanks everyone, really looking forward to being on here, it seems like a good place to to come to(:

13th Dec 2011, 09:02 PM	#10
Nazo Janis Ian's Lesbian Crush Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Facebook, not hiding at college Location: Michigan Age: 19 Posts: 2,071 Join Date: Dec 2010	Re: Victory! Heyo, welcome to EC! __________________ are you feeling like a prisoner are you living life the way you want giving time to ones you love are you giving time to who you are

13th Dec 2011, 09:06 PM	#11
Colton Hit the Lights Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Any one who wants to know Location: California Age: 15 Posts: 1,210 Join Date: Jan 2010	Re: Victory! Hello Welcome to EC!!! __________________ "It's always been about me, myself, and I. I thought relationships were nothing but a waste of time. I never wanted to be anybody's other half. I was happy saying I know love, it wouldn't last." <3

13th Dec 2011, 09:27 PM	#12
Artemicion :D :D :D Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Anyone who asks, but parents in denial. Location: Vancouver BC Canada Age: 23 Posts: 1,112 Join Date: Aug 2010	Re: Victory! Hi and welcome to EC!

13th Dec 2011, 11:32 PM	#13
Hana Solo EC's Dear Abby- talk to me! Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Mostly into girls Out Status: Closet is getting a little crowded Location: Not even a dot on the Australian map Age: 17 Posts: 1,096 Join Date: Nov 2011	Re: Victory! Welcome! __________________ Thor: No matter what he's done, Loki is from Asgard and is my brother Black Widow: He killed 80 people in two days. Thor: ...adopted. ~The Avengers, 2012

14th Dec 2011, 01:45 AM	#15
Gerry We're all a little mad! EC Moderator Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Some people Location: Las Vegas Age: 24 Posts: 5,551 Join Date: Jan 2008	Re: Victory! Hi and welcome to EC! __________________ "Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality".-James Baldwin

14th Dec 2011, 02:00 AM	#16
hml8 EC Addict Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Canterbury, Kent or Southend, Essex Age: 21 Posts: 424 Join Date: Dec 2011	Re: Victory! hi, welcome to EC, if you need a chat don't hesitate to wall post me and nice speech btw!

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