Greetings, organics.

[Mogenar]

(or whatever you guys/girls/others prefer to call yourselves)

MY name is... well, I'm not telling you. Thank you, internet, for this privilege.

Just... Call me Mogenar (Do NOT call me Mog). I'm a teenager with quite a few problems/mild irritants/bags of life laundry whose looking to find solutions in any place they can find. I'm 14. I know some of you may think I'm a little young to be so sure of my sexual orientation and gender identity, but I'm probably know more about myself than most other people know about themselves (and if that sounded arrogant, then I'm sorry about that -- don't mean it to be), and I am sure of what I think. I've been through a lot.

And some of those things include:

• Finding out I have Asperger's Syndrome
• Being almost universally shunned by peers
• Being (wrongly) labeled suicidal
• An insane mother
• Several really crappy Christmases in the middle of nowhere
• My sister almost dying of a brain hemmorhage
• Several boring teachers
• A dead chicken
• Almost being kicked out of school (twice)
• The realization that the world ain't all it's cracked up to be.

I'm not saying I've got it any worse than any of you or any better. This isn't a sob story or some way of getting attention. This is the truth, and I intend to tell it from my point of view, whether people like it or not.

Anyway, about why I'm here.

For a long time, I've wanted to be a woman. I don't remember when it first started, but I know it's probably because I've always seen women as successful, and that none of the men I know are. There's probably something in the back of my mind that says I want to be a woman just to be unlike my father, who I hate. There's probably another part of me that's just sick and tired of having everyone expect me to be something I'm not. Those are all the basis of my desire, though, which is at its shallowest depth (an oxymoron if there ever was one): I want to be a woman because I'm not comfortable with being a man and the social and physical implications that come with it.

The thing that confuses me is that I'm still into girls, though. Very much so.

I don't really have enough time or room to explain this all in one sitting, but there it is. The first little morsel of the story of my life.

[mAOz]

Hello Mog! (Joking, hey Mogenar)

I'm Matt same age as you and welcome to EC! I think that people at our age can be more mature then we get credit for, It depends on what hardships and events have taken place to make us stronger. You definitely seem to of had a 'eventful' life and I'm glad you can talk about it If you ever want to talk to me just post a message on my wall.

- Matt

[Hexagon]

Welcome to EC. Firstly, no, I don't think you're too young to be sure of your sexuality or gender identity.

I want to be a woman because I'm not comfortable with being a man and the social and physical implications that come with it.

Thats all you need. You're perfectly welcome to be a woman here. If you'd like, you can talk to me (transguy) or there are a fair number of transwomen here. There's nothing wrong with liking girls if you are MTF - that just makes you a lesbian, and there is nothing wrong with that.

Once again, welcome, and I hope you find what you need to here.

P.S. I sympathise with the first five bullet points. Life sucks sometimes.

[Chouchou]

Hello, and to EC.

You are not too young to be sure of your sexual orientation and gender identity. Not all teens are like the stereotype, and this place may be one of the last to judge you in that way. I, for one, admire your self-understanding; at nearly twice your age, I don't think I understand myself as well as I should.

As RubiksCube pointed out, there are many people here who have been or are going through the process of transitioning and can give you helpful advice in that regard.

I wish you the best, and hope to see you around!

[silverhalo]

Hey welcome to EC.

[alex2020]

Bienvenue!

[Artemicion]

Welcome to EC!

[thecat06]

Hello and Welcome!!

[hml8]

hey welcome to EC!

[Mogenar]

Well, this helps a lot. Really, I've got to thank you guys. I mean... sorry, I'm just kind of used to saying that (it's ONLY AN EXPRESSION. PLEASE DON'T KILL ME).

I thought for sure at least one person would say either I'm being whiny and just trying to get attention or that I was too young. But now I see that nobody did. You all (or, as we [somtimes] say down here in New Orleans, y'all) are probably some of the coolest people I've ever met.

And I thought about whether or not that would technically make me a lesbian. I don't really identify as female because I know I'm not (physically, anyway). It's more.. I wound't consider myself completely transgender. The only problem is, other than you guys literally only three people know (and only two took it seriously). And no, neither of my parents know (I'm frankly really scared to tell them, because I have a feeling they'd think it wasn't true).

Actually, I'm probably getting WAY off track here, but I didn't even tell one of them. My best friend told me he figured it out himself.

Which is weird, because I would've thought more people would've figured it out by now. I for one think it's blatantly obvious if you even take two minutes (or maybe two hours) taking to me and actually looking at me. If my parents would even pay attention to how I speak (I tend to speak in a high-pitched voice around people I'm more comfortable around), they might have a clue. Or, you know, since I'm a huge nerd and gamer (my mother hates that part) they could have noticed that I always pick the female option in games where I can choose my gender (as a side note, it's really stupid and embarrassing, but I have to say there's probably nobody I idolize more than my own version of Commander Shepard from Mass Effect).

I'm getting sidetracked and going on pointless tangents again. I'm sorry. I'm just so excited that there's someone I can finally talk to this about.

Anyway, I looked at the forums when I was signing up and I just said to myself, "Holy crap. EVERY SINGLE PERSON is like in their 20s, at least!" I'm glad there's at least one person my age.

Look, I'm probably going on far too long and you probably didn't read all of this post (if you did, well, in the words of 343 Guilty Spark: "I am shocked.")

tl;dr: I like y'all.

[Hexagon]

*shrug* I think most transpeople consider themselves to be whatever orientation their true gender is. But everyone is individual...

On the subject of people guessing you're trans: I've found its extremely rare. People usually guess that you're gay if you act to much like what they think is the opposite gender. I had a therapist guess, but he only told me after I told him I was trans. And a bunch of people thought I was a lesbian, which I wasn't. I'm not surprised no one else has guessed tbh.