I am angry and hurt....

I think this would describe me right now. I feel angry at the people in my personal life. I am going through one of the hardest, confusing times in my life and I can’t even turn to any of them in trust or support. That is so very wrong and makes me so angry. The ones I care about the most. Gave so much of my heart and life to. The ones who claim to care about me so much. And yet, I can not tell them that I might be bi or gay and need their support as this is such a horrible time in my life. No! I won’t get that from them. I will get the judgments of this and that against me by them. Some will retract their love for me and leave me. I don’t get them. How can you claim to love someone and get so much love from them and yet be so cruel? If I wanted to deal with this kind of hypocritical love, I would of stayed with that woman I married. Sorry, that was an unfair remark I just made. The thing is that I am no saint by any means and never tried to be, but I am not this horrible person either. I have never hurt anyone intentionally. I know I haven’t. I give to others all the time including unneeded clothing and stuff I have directly to homeless people on the street. So why would I be judged and condemned if I am bi or gay by those in my personal life? It’s so wrong. It’s not like them being straight is all clean cut. I am sure some of them have interesting private lives they wouldn’t want others to know about or be condemned for. Yet, not even a sexual thing with me, just bi or gay and that is what I get from them. That is so hypocritical. I need support and people who care. People I can give support and care to. Not conditional hypocritical love from. This is one of the reasons I am so very scared to face my sexuality issues in the open and why I feel so very alone. I am angry. :bang: