When I left counselling today my counsellor asked me the question "Where is your life?" She said that I am searching for something more meaningful in my life, a relationship, better job, more interesting things to do. But I don't know how to go from being open to new experiences to actually achieveing the type of life that I want. I always take the easy option, I need more challenging experiences. I feel stuck, like I am waiting for insperation. I know I can achieve more from my life I just dont know how to go about getting it. Does anyone else feel like this?
BINGO!!! I can relate so completely to this! It seems like something new and wonderful is just beyond my field of vision and grasp, but I don't know what corner to look around or where to reach, because I'm not completely sure what I'm even looking for. I THINK I know, but I've spent so much time burying my own self in the interest of others that I really need to learn to think of me for a change. It's not an easy thing, particularly when there's still a family involved who needs me emotionally and financially. But no, Molly, you are DEFINITELY not alone in this!
For me it was being authentic. Since I finally accepted who I am I'm much more open to new experiences and all the possibilities I have. I didn't do anything special, just registered at this swedish forum for lesbians and welcomed a lady who was new to writing on forums. She said thanks to me and we wrote to each other for a while, went to the movies and that was the way we became a couple. Being with her has definitely broadened my views, mostly because of the fact that I still am married and have kids. It is not always easy to handle the situation, I have to ensure that everybody is fine, but it helped me to find out what I want in life and definitely what I do not want. I have found qualities inside me I did not even know I had and I have become more self- confident. Well I don't know if this helps you, I can't say do this or do that and then everything is fine :icon_wink but yes, Ive been there where you are now and I can definitely say that it is getting better. Hugs! (*hug*)
