I'm 24 so I've never been married. But I TOTALLY understand EXACTLY where you are coming from regarding the sexuality. I've had crushes on women and been totally smitten a few times. I also recognize now that when I was younger I did have an attraction to males, but through religion that was ignored, and never really was a problem. I didn't feel like I had a need to hide my "gayness" because it wasn't all that prevalent. Like you I could watch straight porn and be aroused, but looking back on it, I really wasn't turned on by the girl. Like you, I've never been attracted to lesbian porn, but as we know porn isn't real life sexuality, so it's not a bar to measure gender identity. But now that I'm a bit older, I realize that my crushes on women were more out of a need to be loved. I never saw myself settling down with a woman, even when I've had sex with girls, something was missing. Yeah it felt great, but it's not the same feeling I get with a guy. Now I have zero desire to spend my life with a woman, I only want to be with a man. That being said, I do feel like as I've gotten older my preferences have evolved because I've grown wiser with understanding who I am. Do I find women attractive yes, but in all honesty I find their butts attractive lol...they look nice, but I don't want to be with them. I hope this helps lol...a long tirade of nothing is what I just gave you!:icon_wink
