Went out the other night. First time in a decade. I found this awesome lesbian club and made plans with my firmly straight friend (lol). I am very femme, yet still a bit butch in some ways. Maybe it's the military still left idk. The place was deserted, but within a short amount of time I prodded the rest of the people into being social lol. Now my straight friend seemed to get a bit territorial when I flirted,.. Which sucked, it has been so long since I was able to. For the first time in a while, I was getting the looks..or maybe I could see them, idk. Then my friend proceeded to kiss me,..now idk if she was just trying to make a point,..but I got pissed. She was acting like the opening to some porn :/. I figured that since she went for it I would make sure she understood that I wouldn't play dancing monkey,..and quickly redirected her focus. The night ended up tanking :/... I really want to go back and hang out,.. But no way can I bring her again,..neither can I go alone :/ damn wheelchair. As it is I was dumped out of the chair (omfg) Covered in bruises,.. But more than that, mortified. It must have seemed like a side show. I didn't want to go out to walk the wild side smh. I wanted music, good company and some time to be free. Ironically a few of the regulars seemed to want me to return,..although I have a pair of brass ones,.. This isn't a phase, or joke.... No way can I roll through down town DC without a friend. I hate being dependent :/ help?
