Went out the other night. First time in a decade. I found this awesome lesbian club and made plans with my firmly straight friend (lol). I am very femme, yet still a bit butch in some ways. Maybe it's the military still left idk. The place was deserted, but within a short amount of time I prodded the rest of the people into being social lol. Now my straight friend seemed to get a bit territorial when I flirted,.. Which sucked, it has been so long since I was able to. For the first time in a while, I was getting the looks..or maybe I could see them, idk. Then my friend proceeded to kiss me,..now idk if she was just trying to make a point,..but I got pissed. She was acting like the opening to some porn :/. I figured that since she went for it I would make sure she understood that I wouldn't play dancing monkey,..and quickly redirected her focus. The night ended up tanking :/... I really want to go back and hang out,.. But no way can I bring her again,..neither can I go alone :/ damn wheelchair. As it is I was dumped out of the chair (omfg) Covered in bruises,.. But more than that, mortified. It must have seemed like a side show. I didn't want to go out to walk the wild side smh. I wanted music, good company and some time to be free. Ironically a few of the regulars seemed to want me to return,..although I have a pair of brass ones,.. This isn't a phase, or joke.... No way can I roll through down town DC without a friend. I hate being dependent :/ help?
Do you have any male friends or siblings that could take you? I think your friend may have some issues of her own to work out.... (*hug*)
I think you need to sit down and talk to your friend, because that is NOT COOL. I think she needs to understand that this isn't a phase and that you really do want to do these things, but need the company. Do you have any other friends that you could ask for help from? Anybody understanding and willing to help you out? If not, perhaps sitting down with her and drawing some lines might help. Besides that, I would ask her why she did that - because if she was trying to fit it, she might've failed at that part. I'm sorry that you feel so dependent. Is there anybody that you could talk to? I understand your concerns - DC can be a scary place - but perhaps there are better ways to be more prepared and ready so that you can be more independent.
Oh pink. Darn that friend. I'm cross with her, so I can only imagine how you must feel. At the moment she doesn't sound like much of a friend, to me. As good as they are, some people have no idea what its like to HAVE to have someone to go out with. I agree with WG, is there any chance you could have that chat with her, and put her in the picture.
